Is this really the essence of my fast? I don't want to seem discontent because I am not seeing the kind of results I want... after all, I'm only a little over 1/3rd of the way done, but I was looking for some... something. Spiritual revelations, ability to focus, telekinesis, mind-reading skills... well, okay, maybe not all of that. Maybe I am over-reaching with what I'm expecting, especially when I don't see all that I'm accomplishing.
Tonight, at prayer meeting, I was praying for some things. And I was asking questions... and God was answering them. Does God get impatient? Because it seemed almost like I was trying it. So what can I complain about? I guess nothing. I have to take each day, one at a time. And be patient. I don't know what I will learn from this fast... but I do think that I'll have a new-found appreciation for food when I'm done.
So, "All Nations" Sunday, when everyone brings a dish and has a big potluck, is going to be happening before the end of this. The Singspiration. My daughters Birthday. The ladies retreat. Another special "kids service" Sunday. It's going to be a busy few weeks. I'm now working my way through day 16, more than a week longer than I've ever fasted before. And honestly, I'm amazed. Amazed that I still have energy levels this high. How long will this last? I thought I'd be much weaker by now.
Looking forward to seeing what the end will look like...
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