SO much stress at work. With an extra heavy workload, it's so busy that I can't get to my regular work because of taking up the slack from others. This stress effects everything else in my life. I'm hoping for a breakthrough.
Made the mistake of going bowling tonight too. My mother called and pleaded with me to take my nephew out with some of the youth from church so I did. Did the fasting affect my game? You bet it did. Was I able to concentrate? Did I have great focus? No. I was weaker. I left after only an hour-and-a-half (something like 5 games) and headed home.
Everywhere I turn, I'm seeing great things to eat. I did a little studying today, also, on how to break a fast. Since I'm having small amounts of juice and milk already, my system isn't as drastically effected. Supposedly, if I broke it with salad (no dressing) and the next day got a little broiled chicken or fish, that would be ideal. I might start with water-based soups and work up to milk based soups too, I don't know. But things like subway sandwiches and chicken sandwiches and deep dish pizza, french fries and mashed potatoes and eggs and hash browns... all these things sound absolutely amazing. It's hard to think that I have to wait 30 more days before I can have anything... and it won't be any of THAT.
But I'm 25% through. And there are already some good things happening. God knows EXACTLY what he's doing, I don't feel like I'm out of his will and lost, I know that he's still got an eye on me, still working in my life to bring things to fruition, and still has a plan for me. I'm hoping that this is all his will, and that he will work some good through this. I just have to be patient.
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